i'm lucky i'm in love

Friday, January 30, 2009

Shallow deep shallow deep shall owde epsh a llo weep
Sides to pick.
Why can't it co-exist, like an irony that makes sense?

I guess it does in some parts.

I've been reading people's blogs again, and I am bowled over by everyone's posts. So full of current affairs, so unpretentious, bold, so without the intention of showing the whole world how cute/cool they are.

They made me think, like a blog originally should, so much the sweet opposite of all the garbage- self-pitying, self-centered crap that is posted out there, not excluding mine (guilty, I admit.)

Sure theres nothing wrong with doing that, its your private space, you can do what you like with it. Fill in the "but..." part yourself.

Theres so much self-editing going on, seriously. I don't like it.

So, about the school's new direction, its struck a chord.
I wasn't here last year, so when I got back and found out about the new vision, values, I was surprised that so much had changed within that year. I thought, it was a new, more purposeful direction. But it was only when I got into the system that I understood what these people mean.

I do miss the values and vision that we grew up with for 3 solid years. I mean, where does the Begonia come in now?

Eliada mentioned that Scholars. Leaders is probably the most practical vision to put up in these days, because its what students need to survive in the outside world.
I agreed.

But something seems missing these days. Some school spirit, warmth, the good old li yi lian chi that we saw everyday.
Courteous, righteous, edified, dignified.
Responsibility
Care and Compassion
Integrity
Fortitude

I miss those days. Everyone didn't really know they cared about these till they were gone.

Labels: Where is my second home now?

Monday, January 26, 2009

Oooh another meme thingo.

1: Besides your lips , where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
I have no idea. Head I think.

2: How do you feel when you woke up this morning? (it was 12.45pm. not morning. But.)
Why are the relatives in my house already? (CNY visitors. gaaaaah.)

3: Who was the last person you took a photo with?
A bunch of flowers I think. At far east flora. Oh wait. My mom. At reunion dinner.

4: Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
YES. *wheres my unicorn dammit!*

5: Would you ever donate blood?
I've given loads to mozzies and the test lab staff. If that counts.

6: Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Sadly. No. But galpals are total awesome!

7: Do you want someone dead?
As in, do I WANT someone whose dead, or want someone DEAD? tricky eh?

8:What does your last text message say?
"Leon"

From some dude to whom I replied: "who are you?" Apparently his name is Leon. I dunno.

9:What are you thinking of right now?
I think I'm high on...I dunno what, just crazy silly happy for no reason.

10: Do you wish someone was with you right now?
Who wants to know?

11: What time did you go to sleep last night?
bout 2.30 a.m

12: Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now ?
It was a gift from Winona!!! Awesome zebra longsleevey~!

13: Is someone on your mind right now?
Wasn't but now is since you asked.

14: Who was the last person to text you?
Singtel. Annoying advertistments. DIE.

10 PEOPLE TAGGED TO DO THIS QUIZ :
1. WeiTing
2. JunJie
3. Phyllis
4. Winona
5. Don't
6. know
7. who
8.else
9. Rachel at gogounicorns.blogspot.com
10. ask me to tag you if you wanna join the mayhem

oh look more! V

15: Who is 2 having a relationship with? (JunJie)
I dunno. Maybe its time we found out eh?

16: Is 3 a male or a female? (Phyllis)
awesome female!

17: If 7 and 10 get together will that be a good thing?
who and ask me to tag you if you wanna join the mayhem? Sounds like a good sentence!

18: What is Number 1 studying about? (WeiTing)
Drawing anime stuff, that girl. JC starts later!

19: When was the last time you had a chat with them?
Who?

20: Is Number 4 single? (Winona)
I guess.

21: Say something about Number 2. (JunJie)
Awesome design stuff!

22: What do you think about Number 3 and 6 being together? (Phyllis and Know)
Eh?

23: Describe Number 9. (Rachel)
Kickass.

24: What will you do if Number 6 and 7 fight? (Know and Who)
My essays will never be the same again.

25: Do you like Number 8? (else)
Would you like a word? Yes I guess. Else and me are friends.

Hahaha. Its late, and the night grows more and more incoherent.
I'm having such fun:

Keziah

so do ya see it?

1:53amDominic

yesh ma'm

1:53amKeziah

I know right

1:54amDominic

as your younger brother, i feel lucky to have only inherited less than half your spasticity

hahaha

1:54amKeziah

hah

thank goodness we're not genetically related

1:54amDominic

i don't know what to type on the stupid lil' queeezzz

1:55amKeziah

like my DNA wants to be like yours

1:55amDominic

pig!

1:55amKeziah

refer to mine, yo

1:55amDominic

hahaha

1:55amKeziah

hahaha

write missisipi for number 5 or smth

1:58amDominic

hahaha

crazy

2:02amKeziah

dundundundun?

I wannnnnnna seeeeeee

2:02amDominic

nop nop nop

i let you see when i let you seeeee

2:03amKeziah

naaaaaaaaaaaaaarh

2:03amDominic

raaaahhhhnnnn

dou

choooooooooo

2:03amKeziah

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh

2:04amDominic

hahahah

2:04amKeziah

hahahahaha

^win.

pop!

it made a pop sound right?

pop

2:04amDominic

what?

hahahaha

2:04amKeziah

poppy

is ur sound on?

2:05amDominic

maccccccccbooookkkk

2:05amKeziah

DIE.

Like, total awesome.

Look what I've seen: http://www.girlonbus.com/

I was like, whaaaaaaat.

Its either a beautiful love story, or a website belonging to some psychotic stalker, desperate guy, depending on how you look at it.

I think its kinda cute. If the guy is hot. Or something.
I'm mean, yes.

Check it out. You might be able to help him. Or not.

Labels: Look

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Why am I stupidly hoping for something so stupid?

What is wrong with my tagboard?!
Grrrr.

Happy CNY people. I thought it was yesterday.

Seriously. I've said this before, and I'll say it again: Your parents give angpows to your relative's kids, and your relatives give you angpows.

It kinda totals up yeah?
Why not just ask your parents to give you the money and be done with all the visiting.

Hahaha. Totally unrooted, but I don't like spazzing out infront of a taiwanese gameshow for 5 hours while people play mahjong.

Labels: Its getting worse.

Friday, January 23, 2009

Snatches of conversation/sounds coming from the kitchen:
(Dad and Mum)

"We are bigger than you."

*sharpening knife*
*water sounds*
*chopchopchop*

*silence*
Because by the time I started listening in, Dad went to bathe and Mum started to cook.

Its like they know.

Like, ESP.
You know.

Labels: on a blogging roll., On a roll

Just blog-hopped around, and I realised how much material I haven't been putting up here.

What to say, what to say?

I want to write, but there seems to be a dam thats stopping the flow of words.

Again, rewind. I've thought of something.

Results day was something I didn't see coming.
It was oddly cathartic, but strange.
From December '07, all the way through '08 and recently '09,
I never felt anything.

Its not the same as when you were a kid anymore. If you got lost in a mall when you were a kid, realization dawns on you immediately, and you feel and react. Almost immediately.

Not anymore. Things seem to take a really long time to seep in nowadays. That took a whole year before I actually (finally) was able to realise what was happening to me,what had happened,what I had missed out on, and feel.

When I hurt my leg, it didn't occur to me that I would be in a whole lot of inconvenience and pain,

just- "Oh, look what happened!"

Perhaps "occur" is not the perfect term. Just that I just went "oh." and carried on without much of a change in mood.

I'm thankful though, to Sabrina and Elida and Mr Lim and every single person that has offered to help/carry me/carry my crutches etc. etc.
You've all been very kind. I don't know how you all do it.

I'm thankful for Results Day. I'm glad I got to let it out. Everything I should have felt right at the beginning came that day, and I think it was good for me, and very healthy too.

So, congratulations my dear '08 friends. Go make something of yourselves.

Now I'm back to normal, totally contented, grateful, hopeful.
I'm integrating into the rhythm that is Study, homework, home, dinner, homework, sleep.
Its not very comfortable, but it works.

But I really need my weekends to recharge. Pity theres so much work to cover during the weekends though.

Did you know you're beautiful?

Labels: Continuum

Controversy, controversy controversy.

Can something be considered controversial if it isn't going to happen /hasn't happened yet?

If filed under "supposedly"...does that count as controversial just because if it happened, it would be?

But who am I to count on something like that ever happening?

Its strange, yeah.
Totally cryptic- just the way I like it.

Labels: It'll be cool

Friday, January 16, 2009

I am overtly repulsed by the idea of blogging during this period of time.

It shows, and nothing caused this state.

I guess its another one of those phases. No apologies for you.

Peace out.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Ok, so heres what everybody wants to know.

I went to school, and am nicely settled into my new class.
Its not a secret which class that is, but I'm not going to put that information up at the moment.
Not on the internet anyway.

What I will say is that the class is absolutely fabulous- beyond what I ever thought they would be. I couldn't have asked for a better group of people to be put in.

I think its going to be a good year.

They're so friendly, if the whole world was like them, there'll be rainbows everywhere. Or maybe all the nuclear weapons will simultaneously self-destruct or something. Or the unicorns will come back.

Something like that.

So, I am thankful, to people like Chingmay, for reassuring me before school started, Faris, for introducing half the class to me, Elida, Sabrina and Nisa for being nice friends.

And God of course.
Where would I be without you?

Labels: Thanksgiving