i'm lucky i'm in love

Thursday, April 30, 2009

I'm getting new guitar strings!

Its the closest to actually getting a new guitar cos after that it'll sound much better!
I can't wait.

and I can so live on without everything I thought was so dear.

Labels: Blargh.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

I AM THE BEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WORLD AND I AM

NOT
EXAGGERATING.

I don't believe myself.

Labels: sigh. wut.

Monday, April 27, 2009

2 hour tuition just over
Hilarious facebook messenger conversation with Kevin
Resulted in encouragement to express insanity in poem form
Here is it:

Not so literally, but sincerely
by me

In rapid succession
A flurry
Of furry
Random
Matrix
Animals

It is pretty

I may be losing my mind
Momentarily
But mad people don't usually know
Their mental state
I must be a rare sort

Bursts of light and snippets of music
Too much stimulus
Neurons firing everywhere
Take cover

Under a safe mental image
Something amazingly
Warming to the eye
The fumbling of manners
Etiquette
Because I don't know what to do

I should not have tried
Immersed and soaked in it
Knowing the consequences
My mind grows slightly
clearer

Don't waggle your eyebrows
At me
I must apologise
Paranoia is not usually
An issue

Everything seems funny
I am not laughing
At your person
Just the universe
At large

I do believe
This is partly
Not the fault of my
Education
Irony
Since educated people
Behave

But socially
A personality
So taken in
The line between
Self and evolving
Selves
Blurs due to something
You produce

We make hippie jokes
But I believe
In the auras
Magnetism never seemed
So real

I feel better
Are those sour candies
Falling softly
And melting in the sky?

I might need to get my
Head
Checked.
Tick.

Mum just exclaimed that there are two suspected cases of flyne swoo in Singapore, our fair land.

Did I say Flyne Swoo?

I think I meant Swine Flu.

Labels: Ow my head.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Today me mom said: "Wouldn't it be silly to bring an ice-cream cake to the desert?"

It was so random.

I want it so bad its painful.
Love hurts.

Labels: Chevrolet Camaro

Friday, April 24, 2009

Things are going well.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Bright eyes
It could be a line
To a rhyme

I've seen it
on
packaging for dog
food

Bright eyes
If you're happy
The soul shines
Through

Just then I realised
I don't know what my
eyes
look like

Probably anything but it.

Monday, April 20, 2009

I think that was all monday blues.
Weird stuff.

Anyhoo, I've been to school today and realised that its not that bad.
I have this Chinese essay to write, about parents reading their kid's blogs.
My parents are afraid to use the computer, because its so complicated and all.
What I don't understand is why the kids are complaining about this invasion of their privacy when they post everything on the internet for other people to read?

I mean, ok, so you don't have a paper and pencil, and want to use the computer and stuff.
Well, use notepad, or Microsoft Word and save it on your desktop with a password!

I think we all know that we blog partly because we are secretly exhibitionists.
Why else put your whole life on display for the world?
Theres nothing wrong with it.

Tanya was being all cold today. It scared me. Everyone was dying from the heat, and shes like, help, I'm freaking cold! <---I've prolly misquoted her, but to some extent thats what she said. We had a fantastic time in the library being productive yet unproductive because so little could be done in 45 minutes. I caught a glimpse of some lian's life on the internet, and am glad to be in a school where people like that don't occur in large numbers. But I shan't judge. Rui Han shared an intriguing but depressing thought today. Again, I'm probably going to misquote him, so I shall put it in my own words. To us, light is the fastest travelling thing in the world, yes? But if you notice, light is always rushing from one place to another at impossible speeds, only to discover that darkness was there first. Depressing when God isn't in it. Ok, darkness got there first, but the light is here to make everything better! My mom just found an article about economics on Maisie's poo paper (as in unused) She says I should read it. And Eliada discovered something while she was completing her social studies workbook. Its a sign, I tell you!

Labels: I was joking. But not really.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

ARGH.

RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
X//

NRG
HURGH
BLARG
MEEEEEEEEEP.
BAH.

I needed to let it all out.

I feel all apprehensive and stuff.
I may be secretly going insane but not know it.

Mark Haddon's A Spot of Bother started off really entertaining but its getting slightly disturbing.

I need to get motivated to be all effective and efficient.
To study as well. Its painful to sit down and do work, but theres nothing meaningful to do except study, which I really don't want to do.
So I end up wasting time looking for things to do, and not finding it.

HELP.

Life is losing its layer of shimmer.

It is, and I can't write a poem about it now.

Entertainment is becoming too routine, so it seems to me like I'm just taking in content to occupy myself and hopefully find something at least vaguely amusing or meaningful.

Since when did I get so jaded?
I don't like my life now, and I can't seem to find the will to get myself out of it.
Its not like I'm emo, far from it.
But I'm this close to flailing.
No one should ever reach the flailing stage. Seriously.

I just realised that I have nothing to look forward to.
Perhaps thats why I 'm feeling like this.

How?

Labels: I wish Sian was an english word. That way I could explain it all better.

Monday, April 13, 2009

Its dark, cold, but warm under the covers.
The house is silent, save for the soft whirring sounds of the fan.
In my semi-conscious state, I see a crack of light as my room door is opened, and a voice says: "Don't go to school today, you need to rest."
I stir and turn to hide my eyes from the light.
That suggestion sounded amazingly good. If it wasn't an option before, well, now it was.
Inside my head, something screams: "You're not sick enough! Go to school! You have lessons, test corrections and CCA stuff to see to!"

The voice again: "Stay home and rest today, how do you feel?"
Just then I realise its not my inner slacker talking to me. Its my mom.

"Terrible." I mumble, stretching and locating my sore throat and slight fever and blocked nose.
Its there.
So I go back to sleep after watching the sky outside my window brighten in degrees.
When I awake, I sit bolt upright.

"Crap! I feel awesome."

I have every symptom he mentions.
"Sore throat?" Check.
"Blocked nose?" Check.
"Fever?" Check.
"Sneezes?" Check.
The doctor gives me a 2 day MC.

I stare at him in wonderment.

Labels: amusing day., Sick

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Oh lookee.
The songs keep coming.
I've got 1 and a half in just one sitting.
I wonder if the flu bug is the one who's whispering
Making all these melodies come this much easily

I feel terrible.
My stomach, it feels hungry and nauseous at the same time.
So I want to eat, but don't want to at the same time.
How can a paradox like this exist?

And I can't sit down to do any work either, since my stomach is so distracting, and then I get really annoyed because I can't focus on a thing I'm doing.
I am so annoyed.

I'm hungry.

Labels: Oh Mon Dieu, why does this happen to me?

Friday, April 10, 2009

Okay, so having two different emotions smashing around in my head dosen't feel good.

In fact, its
terrible.

I've just read Must Love Dogs (yes, it was a novel first, before it got turned into a movie)
I feel encouraged to answer personal ads.
Haha.
Of course not.

So now I have 3 movies I want to see:

Watchmen
Must Love Dogs
An Inconvenient Truth

I think I need a sidesplitting comedy to rinse my aura.
Haha.
Now I sound like a hippy.

Its ok, I'll stay murky afterall.

Labels: Pain and Smiles

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

I love Great Britain.

Thats enough for me.

Labels: Is Stupid.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Cheryl and I went to see David Archuleta today at Bugis.

Man, can he sing.
I wish I could sing like him.
His stage presence was awesome.
And we met Winona along the way!

And I'm tired.
I think I missed out on the entire chapter of Mitosis in Bio today because I kept falling asleep.
I was trying to keep awake, but its always:
-MyeyesareclosingclosingclosingbutIwillnotsleep-

Then the next thing I know, I'm waking up.

> : [

Sabrina said she didn't even see my eyes close.

And and and.

I think you're awesome.

Labels: To duh maax

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Labels: Ache

Friday, April 3, 2009

Finally, a new song!
I've had that writing feeling for a few days now, but I haven't been able to conjure a decent tune.

Well I did it today!

It, like the rest, has no title. Yet. Maybe, maybe not.

Standard Tuning,
Chords: D- Am- C- G

My hearts in a jumble
And the lyrics are all mumbled
Don't know the answers
You say

I know how your heart beats
But I wish I knew who for
How to make you look
This way

I love your manners
The way you look at me
Your mind blows me away

Its your fault I'm this way

C G D
Suddenly the world is beautiful
I think
You have something to do with it
Suddenly I've figured it all out again
Because,
I think I've found you...

I wanna run to the corner,
Put your soul in a locket
You make
Me
Sing.

Labels: Oh yeah.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Today was the Bio test,
Which I totally last-minuted.
So I didn't finish studying for it, just about 60% of the content?
I was actually kinda sorta hyperventilating from morning till bio.
Thinking back, I think Bio wasn't the only thing that caused that.

And, I don't think you'll be seeing this, but our deal is ON.
Lunch is on you if I fail! :D

I am amused,
and also slightly sad for Oasis.
They are coming!

I heard about them from McFLY at first, and grew to love their brit-whine-rock after listening to:

Wonderwall
Champagne Supernova
Stand By Me

Now they're finally coming, and I go to sistic to look for tickets, and

the cheapest ($48) tickets are sold out.
But the $128, $79 ones are not.

Wee Sian says its the recession,
I dunno.
Its rather sad innit?

I would totally go if there were $48 tickets.

Labels: And after all, you're my wonderwall.