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Friday, January 23, 2009

Just blog-hopped around, and I realised how much material I haven't been putting up here.

What to say, what to say?

I want to write, but there seems to be a dam thats stopping the flow of words.

Again, rewind. I've thought of something.

Results day was something I didn't see coming.
It was oddly cathartic, but strange.
From December '07, all the way through '08 and recently '09,
I never felt anything.

Its not the same as when you were a kid anymore. If you got lost in a mall when you were a kid, realization dawns on you immediately, and you feel and react. Almost immediately.

Not anymore. Things seem to take a really long time to seep in nowadays. That took a whole year before I actually (finally) was able to realise what was happening to me,what had happened,what I had missed out on, and feel.

When I hurt my leg, it didn't occur to me that I would be in a whole lot of inconvenience and pain,

just- "Oh, look what happened!"

Perhaps "occur" is not the perfect term. Just that I just went "oh." and carried on without much of a change in mood.

I'm thankful though, to Sabrina and Elida and Mr Lim and every single person that has offered to help/carry me/carry my crutches etc. etc.
You've all been very kind. I don't know how you all do it.

I'm thankful for Results Day. I'm glad I got to let it out. Everything I should have felt right at the beginning came that day, and I think it was good for me, and very healthy too.

So, congratulations my dear '08 friends. Go make something of yourselves.

Now I'm back to normal, totally contented, grateful, hopeful.
I'm integrating into the rhythm that is Study, homework, home, dinner, homework, sleep.
Its not very comfortable, but it works.

But I really need my weekends to recharge. Pity theres so much work to cover during the weekends though.

Did you know you're beautiful?

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