Bright eyes If you're happy The soul shines Through
Just then I realised I don't know what my eyes look like
Probably anything but it.
Monday, April 20, 2009
I think that was all monday blues. Weird stuff.
Anyhoo, I've been to school today and realised that its not that bad. I have this Chinese essay to write, about parents reading their kid's blogs. My parents are afraid to use the computer, because its so complicated and all. What I don't understand is why the kids are complaining about this invasion of their privacy when they post everything on the internet for other people to read?
I mean, ok, so you don't have a paper and pencil, and want to use the computer and stuff. Well, use notepad, or Microsoft Word and save it on your desktop with a password!
I think we all know that we blog partly because we are secretly exhibitionists. Why else put your whole life on display for the world? Theres nothing wrong with it.
Tanya was being all cold today. It scared me. Everyone was dying from the heat, and shes like, help, I'm freaking cold! <---I've prolly misquoted her, but to some extent thats what she said. We had a fantastic time in the library being productive yet unproductive because so little could be done in 45 minutes. I caught a glimpse of some lian's life on the internet, and am glad to be in a school where people like that don't occur in large numbers. But I shan't judge. Rui Han shared an intriguing but depressing thought today. Again, I'm probably going to misquote him, so I shall put it in my own words. To us, light is the fastest travelling thing in the world, yes? But if you notice, light is always rushing from one place to another at impossible speeds, only to discover that darkness was there first. Depressing when God isn't in it. Ok, darkness got there first, but the light is here to make everything better! My mom just found an article about economics on Maisie's poo paper (as in unused) She says I should read it. And Eliada discovered something while she was completing her social studies workbook. Its a sign, I tell you!
I feel all apprehensive and stuff. I may be secretly going insane but not know it.
Mark Haddon's A Spot of Bother started off really entertaining but its getting slightly disturbing.
I need to get motivated to be all effective and efficient. To study as well. Its painful to sit down and do work, but theres nothing meaningful to do except study, which I really don't want to do. So I end up wasting time looking for things to do, and not finding it.
HELP.
Life is losing its layer of shimmer.
It is, and I can't write a poem about it now.
Entertainment is becoming too routine, so it seems to me like I'm just taking in content to occupy myself and hopefully find something at least vaguely amusing or meaningful.
Since when did I get so jaded? I don't like my life now, and I can't seem to find the will to get myself out of it. Its not like I'm emo, far from it. But I'm this close to flailing. No one should ever reach the flailing stage. Seriously.
I just realised that I have nothing to look forward to. Perhaps thats why I 'm feeling like this.
Its dark, cold, but warm under the covers. The house is silent, save for the soft whirring sounds of the fan. In my semi-conscious state, I see a crack of light as my room door is opened, and a voice says: "Don't go to school today, you need to rest." I stir and turn to hide my eyes from the light. That suggestion sounded amazingly good. If it wasn't an option before, well, now it was. Inside my head, something screams: "You're not sick enough! Go to school! You have lessons, test corrections and CCA stuff to see to!"
The voice again: "Stay home and rest today, how do you feel?" Just then I realise its not my inner slacker talking to me. Its my mom.
"Terrible." I mumble, stretching and locating my sore throat and slight fever and blocked nose. Its there. So I go back to sleep after watching the sky outside my window brighten in degrees. When I awake, I sit bolt upright.
"Crap! I feel awesome."
I have every symptom he mentions. "Sore throat?" Check. "Blocked nose?" Check. "Fever?" Check. "Sneezes?" Check. The doctor gives me a 2 day MC.
Oh lookee. The songs keep coming. I've got 1 and a half in just one sitting. I wonder if the flu bug is the one who's whispering Making all these melodies come this much easily
I feel terrible. My stomach, it feels hungry and nauseous at the same time. So I want to eat, but don't want to at the same time. How can a paradox like this exist?
And I can't sit down to do any work either, since my stomach is so distracting, and then I get really annoyed because I can't focus on a thing I'm doing. I am so annoyed.
Okay, so having two different emotions smashing around in my head dosen't feel good.
In fact, its terrible.
I've just read Must Love Dogs (yes, it was a novel first, before it got turned into a movie) I feel encouraged to answer personal ads. Haha. Of course not.
So now I have 3 movies I want to see:
Watchmen Must Love Dogs An Inconvenient Truth
I think I need a sidesplitting comedy to rinse my aura. Haha. Now I sound like a hippy.
Cheryl and I went to see David Archuleta today at Bugis.
Man, can he sing. I wish I could sing like him. His stage presence was awesome. And we met Winona along the way!
And I'm tired. I think I missed out on the entire chapter of Mitosis in Bio today because I kept falling asleep. I was trying to keep awake, but its always: -MyeyesareclosingclosingclosingbutIwillnotsleep-
Finally, a new song! I've had that writing feeling for a few days now, but I haven't been able to conjure a decent tune.
Well I did it today!
It, like the rest, has no title. Yet. Maybe, maybe not.
Standard Tuning, Chords: D- Am- C- G
My hearts in a jumble And the lyrics are all mumbled Don't know the answers You say
I know how your heart beats But I wish I knew who for How to make you look This way
I love your manners The way you look at me Your mind blows me away
Its your fault I'm this way
C G D Suddenly the world is beautiful I think You have something to do with it Suddenly I've figured it all out again Because, I think I've found you...
I wanna run to the corner, Put your soul in a locket You make Me Sing.
Today was the Bio test, Which I totally last-minuted. So I didn't finish studying for it, just about 60% of the content? I was actually kinda sorta hyperventilating from morning till bio. Thinking back, I think Bio wasn't the only thing that caused that.
And, I don't think you'll be seeing this, but our deal is ON. Lunch is on you if I fail! :D
I am amused, and also slightly sad for Oasis. They are coming!
I heard about them from McFLY at first, and grew to love their brit-whine-rock after listening to:
Wonderwall Champagne Supernova Stand By Me
Now they're finally coming, and I go to sistic to look for tickets, and
the cheapest ($48) tickets are sold out. But the $128, $79 ones are not.
Wee Sian says its the recession, I dunno. Its rather sad innit?
