i'm lucky i'm in love

Monday, February 15, 2010

A post from bed

First post from bed. Guess I need to think. Remember when I said being sad drives me insane? Well maybe it doesn't, perhaps I'm just learning to cope.
Thank God for JMRAZ.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

This post was written to distract myself.

I told myself I'd just take a 10 minute nap
Then wham
I wake up at 8.30pm.

I find it so much easier to define emotions and points of views in poems rather than prose. I guess it's because I don't have to explicitly spell out everything in poems, since I get to be vague.

Song writing is lovely, but somehow it seems...shallower than writing poems. Unless I learn to write music to my lyrics I'm going to have to freestyle and scribble down words before I lose them.

I remember Fizah complaining: "the handwriting is terrible!" when she was trying to read my lyrics. Somehow I don't feel ashamed of my handwriting any longer. Firstly, I was scribbling the lyrics down before I forgot them. Secondly, School has done something to me. Somehow I've found so much of my identity as an FMS student.

Perhaps it just gives me license to say: "Hey, I'm from FMS" to anything, especially when people tell me I scribble.

I love it.

P.S Fizah, ILU, happy V day! ^^

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Still needs refining, but.

Capo 1
C G C Am F

first
we stay
then
we say
look well this is dear
but we've got to move on
before this gets older by the minute

who
am I to say
this might stay
I have no idea because
I'm trying to sit in your shoes
And I just don't see

I don't see why I repeat it all
then find myself lost for words
I haven't got the strength
So give it up

Oh dear
Here we go
spiralling down again

really baby
don't you know
it's really all a pain

take my hand
we'll convalescent
and take care of that lane

anything but music
anything is hell
anything for you perhaps
if you'll give me a steer

it's a sad sad story
of how you could be
the only one for me

are you sure this is what you want
because an aries in love could be a slant

Friday, February 12, 2010

CNY blogpost

first
we stay
then
we say
look well this is dear
but we've got to move on
before this gets older by the minute

who
am I to say
this might stay
I have no idea because
I'm trying to sit in your shoes
And I just don't see

I don't see why I repeat it all
then find myself lost for words
I haven't got the strength
So give it up

I don't get why I'm so depressed this CNY.
For a start, we're not visiting, which is EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED.
So you see I don't know what is wrong with me.

I think emotions got too high yesterday, I don't think I could survive an Arctic Monkey's concert without exploding.
Yes Kristen? Yes.

So against my better judgement, Kristen and I bus danced to Arctic Monkeys on the way to the Museum. Best bad decision ever. ILU Kristen!
Apparently we shook the entire bus. ^^

Now I'm sitting in front of my computer, fingers on the keyboard, and trying to start on my assignment.

IKR. Tell me about it.
TMAI < shall we use that FMS DPA?
ILU all xoxo

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Bah can't write

It's 12 a.m again
I'm wondering if this means anything
The stars are in the sky
Where they're supposed to be

I can't turn you into another boy
Oh by golly I love your point of view
I can't do it without coming out
alive

Did you see the train pass
In the rain where we just
Or perhaps it was just my own
.
.
.
I lost my phone.

Sorrz, phone is on extended vacation.

Hi all, I've lost my phone.

So if you've tried to contact me I'm sorry I can't reply!

I keep reaching for it but it isn't there. Guess who's feeling uncomfortable?

Monday, February 1, 2010

Sweet sweet caffeine

This morning, Dihar absentmindedly asked me: "Keziah do you want to get coffee?"

I went: "Yeah I think so! I didn't really sleep. I should right? "

Then she went: "Wait no no no no you cannot!"
She's so lovely.

Then as usual, I am deprived, and I deprive myself of the lovely poison that is coffee.